CELEBRATING A QUEEN IN HEART AND SMILE

and she once posted...... "Nothing can dim the light that shines from within, Maya Angelou"

Today was one of those days when I think of mum and as usual you were the first one I always contact. I text you immediately I wake up at 5am and get no response which is unusual so am assuming later on in the day you will holla back. I clear my errands and at 10am when am just about to join the #FichaUchiUgenya social media campaign I open my facebook page and the first photo I see is you. Of course am interested and the accompanying message "It saddens me to hear that ur done so soon rest in peace dear"  leaves me glued to my screen for the next 20 minutes shocked, and it takes  another 30 to gather enough strength to confirm from Leah that you are no more. The same day I was celebrating my sister's birthday, I lost a good friend more like a sister on the same road I had used the same day about three times. The worst part being I never knew about it until two days later.

It has been four years of amazing friendship and too many goals for 2018. It’s so unfair that you could only stay for 6 days. The first day we met and clicked because of our unique and similar life stories. You looked so much like my mum especially because of the gap between your teeth then you guys sharing the same birthday and we concluded that we were October twins only born on different days. I can’t imagine that this year I’ll have to search for the October babies memes alone and who will I even share them with twinny? Who will I talk to when I need more insights on Release... you taught me then only way to let go and how am I going to let go of you. You never waited to see the blog we were doing about October, but I still keep the picture you sent me maybe that was the birthday gift I was supposed to give for this year.
You spent a lot of time pale park and was my number one hockey fan and the two years i stopped playing you were really on my case. So this year you were supposed to graduate from being a fan and start training as soon as i settled on my job and you didn't even give me a heads up that I will be alone in this. We are having another FichaUchi later this month, this time the road trip that you wanted to go because Machakos was so near for you and I'll be doing this alone too. You gave me an idea to start blogging and always gave me full support and honest opinion.You never made it for my grad but kept telling me how mum was proud of me in heaven and now two people I love are smiling in heaven.

I really have too much memories of us to pen down and I'm thinking they can fit well in a chapter of our life story that we were to write at 30. Zile baraka za wedding ulinipa last year you haven't lived to see them happen. Boo ata unge ngoja we accomplish just one of our plans but heaven couldn't wait for you.

So I spent a good part of the day locked up in my room, mourning  you in the best  way I know, writing down our memories and am thinking Annette always told me to write down any feeling I had  and from heaven am sure you'll read this. Sleep with the angels gal tutaonana baadaye

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